I'm absolutely bored out of my mind so I decided to post. I'm sure if there was a course or instruction book for blogging they'd probably tell you not to say that. Kind of like when you speak in front of people you're not supposed to make excuses for not sounding good, etc.
Oh well.
Second semester of my Junior year started Wednesday. There are three things that've stood out so far:
One, there is no way I'll be able to get through this semester without becoming severely addicted to caffeinated coffee. In my German IV class -- which convienently happens to be first period -- the teacher has been/ will continue to bring in his coffee maker for our use along with another coffee pot thing for boiling water so those who don't drink coffee can make themselves tea. Let me tell you, a big cup of coffee with hazelnut creamer and no sugar tastes amazing at about 8:15 a.m.
Two, psychology is the most interesting subject that I've ever taken. Yes, I've had actual classes that probably were more intersting themselves because of the teacher and so forth. Psych is incredibly intriguing to me. I just hope I don't go crazy; knowing me I'll convince myself that I've got some sort of mental illness and there we go. I'm quite the hypochondraic, but I'm much better than I used to be. Seriously.
And lastly three, I've never had so much homework in my life. Not only that, but it's a huge shock to me since last semester ( we take four different classes each semester) I did absolutely no homework whatsoever. Now, I've got all "real" classes. It used to be that the bell would ring and I'd get up throw my books in the locker and walk out the door empty handed. Now I've got to figure out how to stuff it all in my backpack.
To make matters wores, I think I've got senioritis and there's still year and a half to go. Joy. I'm ready to be done with highschool and all the "drama". It's all such a waste of time and we all realize it too. Yet, half the folks continue it.
And, I've really been struggling with what my place is in my youth group. David L. if you come across this don't you get mad etc. at me. It's hard, because I don't think I quite fit. I know everyone in senior high ( about 40 people on an average Sunday night) and at least half of the middle school (varies, when you include 6th grade thats about 100+ active kids). So it's not that I don't know people. I think it has more to do with the programs and that whole spectrum of things. I don't feel like it really applies to me. And yes, I know it does "apply". But, I want more than a lesson on say the movie "Dodgeball", or a lesson on rap. I don't listen to rap. It's like everything's fitted around the stereotypical white teenager and their interests and most of the time it fits just about everyone who goes. So I guess if I said I felt a little "alienated" would be closer to the truth. It's like because the youth group's so big, lessons are made to appeal to the majority and most of the time I don't fit into the majority. And it frusterates me, and makes me sad... But let me just say this though: Awesome things are happening in my youth group, and the leaders are incredibly special people. It's just by chance I guess that I feel looked over.
Shalom,
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